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21 September 2012 @ 10:34 am


Watching 16 & pregnant... Actually in love with this programme. It makes me so broody, but it defiantly makes me want to wait and do it right when I DO do it. It also makes me want to start my midwifery course.. NOW. 

Going to see my uni girls today. I'm so excited, cause I miss not seeing them so much. We always have such a fab time together. Hopefully will find a white blouse/shirt that will cover my tats for friday. Fingers crossed! :)

04 May 2012 @ 12:27 am

Just spent the last 3 hours moving personal posts from tumblr onto here. I want all those sort of posts together even if it's not that important. Tumblr is for cute pictures and really non important things. Livejournal has been a diary from 2007 and it has got so much info on it. I really hope that I can keep this forever. 

Reading things back as I moved stuff over, I really wanted to change things. Write comments after about how this or that didn't happen. But it really showed how much things have changed in my life & how miserable I have been for long time. I'm hoping that things have changed for the better now :) 

12 February 2012 @ 05:14 pm
I miss talking to people on here :( 
16 December 2011 @ 08:15 pm

Loves how my ankles scream in pain after every shift. I'm no even pregnant and my ankles are evil. Boo. Handed in my notice today: fuckyeah. No more sarcastic douchebag to deal with :)

10 December 2011 @ 08:15 pm


I did an 11 hour shift yesterday with a half hour break. It's save to say that I feel tired today and my arms heard from carrying the buffet food. The wedding I did yesterday is probably going to be my last one - I kind of hope - because I haven't heard anything back from the other job I'm meant to get. Hm.. I almost cried at the speeches. They were so beautiful. Full of such love and happiness. By the end of the night most people were smashed. So funny. 

I was at one point babbling about fate with one of my work collegeues. wtf? I have no idea why. As long as I've got this new job I'm going to be happy. 

09 December 2011 @ 08:17 pm


Had one of the most.. interesting and honest conversations with a certain boy yesterday. He told me he still had feelings for me.. interesting. I don't know exactly what's occuring with him, but at the moment I'm 100% ok if nothing happens :) 

I HAVE A NEW JOB. yessssss. I can't even begin to say how excited I am. It's going to be a tiring year next year, but it's only for a 42week contract. I wonder what I will be feeling when I'm half way through this 42 week & then re-read this. I wonder if I will be still so ecstatic to have said job. Esp when it's 50hour week. OUCH. But it's money money money. And I need it.. So! Thank god, that stress is off my mind for another year. It also means that it will get me through the next year so much quicker meaning: I can apply for 2013 a lot quicker! POSITIVES :)  

I am just very happy atm. Can say FUCKU to fabio is a dickfaceprick to me at work. :) 

07 December 2011 @ 08:17 pm


Woke up to discover that I had an email back about a job. YAY. Just a bit pants that it's temporary part-time. Really want something more permante and full time. BUT, if I can arrange it work around my other job, then it should be should be ok and could possible add up to at least.. ya know, 20hours a week. HOPEFULLY. Rather than my pittful 10 hours. 

Fingers crossed. 

06 December 2011 @ 08:19 pm


Just discovered that I won't be starting in 2012 for my midwifery course. I will have to re-apply this time next year in hope of starting in sep 2013. Hate my life. :( 

05 December 2011 @ 08:21 pm


Massive stress. Just redone my personal statement or my ma did. After the 5th draft. Go and pay for an additional course. Reapply. Wait. Wait... Wait... WTF NO UPDATE OF THE PERSONAL STATEMENT INFO?! WHAT?! 

Ring up UCAS. Ring up Anglia Ruskin. Email a lady in hope that she can use my new personal statement so I don't have to wait another year. OH PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. I don't think I could deal with waiting another year for this. 

Has everything crossed that she will be able to do this for me! 

04 December 2011 @ 05:46 pm


Brand new complex: I've now come to the conclusion that I look like aboy. facially. Swear it. I feel miserable every time I look in the mirror from every single angle. Apart from, well, maybe, the back. But even then. I don't know how I'm going to get myself out of this shiz. I have no money for the gym, no money to go to any classes. No room at home to do any exercise. fuck. I'm just lazy and I know this... I just wish I had something that would motivate me like I had 2years ago when I lost over a stone. I was so happy then. Now I'm just BLAH.  I could go jogging but I have no stamina. I just feel tired all the time. WHEN WILL I DO SOMETHING ABOUT THIS. Rather than moaning about it. FML.

On the plus, hopefully finishing my personal statement tomorrow and see if I can send it off. Again. Probably won't be able to now, but I have my fingers tightly crossed just in case.